Here at Cloud 8, it is a year of change. This year the boys turn 5, 10, and 13. Sweet Pea will be a teenager, Pickles has hit the double digits, and Pumpkin Pie will start kindergarten at the big kid school. I know, it makes my head spin. I, too, have hit a milestone. After 13 years of on-again off-again part-time three-six hours a week employment, I got a *real* job! Okay, it’s still only part-time, but 20 hours a week is way more than the zero I have been doing since December. (The state, in all its budget-minded wisdom, stopped paying for most of the in-home therapy I had been doing with really needy, significantly dysfunctional families.)
Pumpkin Pie and I were in the Ninja Van on our way home from some grocery store or another and I was on the phone leaving a message for my dad telling him I got the job.
Me (to my Dad’s voice mail): So I got the job! Yay! I am excited. And terrified. Yeah, mostly terrified. Talk to you later, bye.
Pumpkin Pie: Mom. Why are you terrified?
Me: Oh, buddy. I’m not really that scared. You know I am starting a new job right after you guys go back to school?
Pumpkin Pie: Yeah.
Me: Well, starting something new like this can be scary. Exciting and awesome, but a little intimidating. You and I are both doing something new this year. You know, like how you’re starting kindergarten in the fall. How are you feeling about that?
Pumpkin Pie: Terrified.
Me: Maybe excited, too?
Pumpkin Pie: No. Just terrified.
Here at Cloud 8, we fear change.